I wanted to stop earth and get off. My life was out of control. I had closed myself off from anyone I ever knew before this life cycle in this relationship.
Mind control of self was disappearing faster than I could remember. I had no self worth, no one around me understood me, drug life was rampant and now dangerous with guns getting into peoples, pockets and vehicles that I knew.
Being told certain dealers were dead, but would walk across a pedestrian crossing in front of me whilst I had a limousine full of Japanese tourists, half asleep from their exhausting itinerary .
Lies occurring in every conversation, people began to turn green from far too many drugs.. I had had enough.
I was lost and I had no where to turn to, my body had run out of fuel. Obviously this landed me in hospital and a two week jaunt of being with real loonies. That was exactly what I needed to wake myself up and get out of the pathetic existence I had allowed myself to be dragged into.
I had one friend visit me in the hospital and it showed who was who in the zoo.
